sunday 21st of december 2025.
(this was originally written on the 22nd of december 2024, then firstly edited on the 3rd of november 2025, and finally edited and posted 364 days later, on the 21st of december 2025).
welcome to the first official, never-seen, rambling session of this beautiful garden owner! if you are reading this, please expect in the future a series of random topics with some spelling and grammar mistakes.
today’s (when?) first topic is (drumrolls please!!!): “creation does not owe beauty”.
the idea behind this first entry comes from my very own belief that everything i create (either in the physical o virtual plane) has to be beautiful, or at least not ugly. even though i know that my personal experience and assumptions have given life to such belief, i find that it rather limits me to doing the things that i actually feel like doing, for an unfounded fear of failure.
additionally, i find quite funny for all the expectations i have for myself since i have always admired crafters. people who do not look at others, but give life to something that should be looked at. that’s so cool, like actually sooo cool. and it doesn’t fail to make me feel spontaneously giddy. like yeah, you created this, and it totally rocks. so why should i not feel the same way about what i create? what is the difference between myself and others?
the bottom line is that i should be kinder to myself. even when i’m writing this, i can’t help but think that it is not good, and that it should be better. and yeah, it should! however, how can i get better if i don’t allow myself the opportunity to practice by actually creating things that may or not suck?
i hope that making the time to fill out this virtual diary helps me to hone my writing and also discover new things about myself. i know that in a far away future, i will look back at this entry and find 100 mistakes that should be fixed, but until then i will try to not think about it too much.
in conclusion, this self-imposed expectation for beautiful results has blinded me from seeing the actual truth of this world. since the mere act of craft is beautiful, the crafted product does not owe beauty to the world, nor the observer. and for better or worse, we tend to forget that a lot.
i want to show others my craft, whether it is beautiful, ugly, both or neither of those. so, if you want to accompany me in this journey, you are more than welcome.
see ya my dear garden guest, take care of yourself; and, i entreat you, create!
- inthemeantimewecry.